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It was stupid of me, to plant a rose in a desert, and wait for it to grow, and it was even worse that I watered it and took care of it,

 I don't know what I hate more, the sky, or the color of your eyes. 
both are so blue, innocent, promising, deceiving, a smooth deep lie.  
I can never tell when things would change and acid rain would start pouring down on me. 

 even when I saw those grey clouds in your eyes, blocking your soul, I still thought that I could read you. 

 I still believed in myself and in you and in all the things we said, my faith is solid, but it's time to smash it.
because I don't know what would be worse, to lose myself or to lose you. 
I'm losing either ways. 

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