he loves me, he loves me not.

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I found a bloomed daisy, I held it closely and decided to start a count.

one,
a week after we met then we arranged a meeting where we had a nice long night, we talked non-stop, then we went out for a walk, I remember giggling till my stomach hurt. Before I go home he offered to walk with me although he didn't have to.
I was cold and he gave me his jacket.

two,
I didn't hear from him for whole ten days afterwards.

three,
I called in sick the other day, he came with a bouquet of flowers and my favorite chocolate. He wanted to stay with me the whole day until I was better, I told him not to but still he stayed.

four,
I called him two times, texted him three times, he saw my text and didn't reply.
the next day I asked him why he didn't answer me yesterday, and he ignored my question.

five,
it's my birthday, I woke up to long sweet text from him, he asked me to meet him to find out that he had a party planned for me.

six,
I am talking and he is not even listening.

seven,
he couldn't sleep so he called me, we talked for more than 9 hours, we stayed on the line until he fell asleep.

eight,
I made plans with him, he stood me up.
three times in a row.

nine:
he looks at me when I look away, his eyes not leaving my face.
and when I spoke that day his smiles widened and he interrupted me to say " God, your smile is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen."

ten,
we had a fight, I don't even remember what it was about, but I remember how petty and indifferent he was, he told me to stay away from him and that he needed space.

now I have nothing,
but a stem of a dead daisy,
a heart full of confused feelings.

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