The day it all started making sense.

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It all seems worthless after a while.
Remember that well, because it's a common thing to occur in your life span. It is a vicious cycle, constant de ja vu, where things go wrong and then go right,
Things go horribly wrong, but then the world tries to make amends by tipping the scale and granting you small victories.
Congratulations! You didn't kill yourself today.
Look at you! You managed to leave your house and laugh when all you wanted to hide and weep.
Those little victories, make all the difference.
Although, often, our battles do not leave us unmarked. They're like a predator marking their territory.
They leave you with burdens you can't carry,
Secrets you can't share,
Memories you're constantly trying to forget,
Every time they bring a different kind of ache to your heart, one that you seldom stomach,
And I know that you mostly wonder,
What's the whole point ?
What's the point of wanting what you can't have ? Trying over and over and over ? Thrashing and kicking and shouting at the top of lungs ?
I know that your defeats will overwhelm you at times, and that you won't have time to think of a strategy,
You'll raise your white flags.
I know you think that your vulnerability is pathatic,
That by merely being yourself your doing something terribly wrong,
That you'd rather stay in this cocoon for as long as you are stoic and ignorant,
But you're wrong.
The world needs people like you,
With big heart and open minds and willingness to give and give and never take.
The world needs your kindness,
Even if it rarely shows it.
So don't hide your heart away,
For things that are kept hidden for long times are often lost.

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