Wilted Words

I find myself thinking a lot lately. I'm absent-minded almost all the time, which isn't a very good sign. I think about nothing in particular, and everything in general. everything seems remote these days. like I'm over-viewing my life from a vantage point. like I'm watching everything from a safe distance. and the worst thing about this nothingness is that I don't even know how it consumed me, how I became so numb and lifeless. how can I feel full with the void stretching within ? how can I feel whole again with the black hole inside me, swallowing whatever feelings left in me? I'm  nothing but doubt, confusion and curiosity. I'm floating without a destination in the stormy sea. the Surging waves are throwing me in all directions, the fierce tides are keeping me away from the shore, and I'm all over the place, I'm lost without guidance. I'm full with love that no one wants, it stagnated in my heart, it turned into murky hat...